When I dream of you, it is perfect. We have no cares in the world and are able to share that love that seems could never be broken no matter what.

When I dream of you, the world seems to make sense. All of the evil that is out there can’t penetrate the bubble that we have created in our hearts and our minds as we stand against the world.

When I dream of you, everything makes sense. There is views for a brighter tomorrow and a passion building from the yesterdays that have passed.

When I dream of you, my heart and soul are at peace knowing that you’re right there at my side, ready to help me conquer the onslaught of negativity that will always come and try to destroy what we have built for ourselves.

When I dream of you, I dream of your smile, your innocent laughter, your sense of curiosity, your unambiguous generosity, your will to live despite the outcome. It keeps me pushing to be better in my life.

When I dream of you, I dream of being able to say I love you to the only person I had ever truly loved. I dream about getting those kisses that gave me butterflies, the ones that sent sparks down my spine and a jolt to my heart. I dream about you holding me tight through the night as I felt secure in your arms.

And when I dream of you, I dream of all that I have lost, physically, emotionally and mentally. I beat myself up for the pain that I have caused us both. For not being strong enough and running away at the first sign of danger. For not giving you an opportunity to share your wants or your needs. For being so distraught in my head that there was no room for your voice when I needed it the most.

When I dream of you, I dream of what could have been and what if I still had a chance, that just maybe there was some way to get back into your good graces. That as long as I am still breathing, I still have a shot at something, anything involving you.

When I dream of you, that is all that I can do, dream. You have moved on in your life and have found new avenues for growth. You have things to look forward to and plans that you have made to empower your life.

When I dream of you, now, that is all there is, a dream made up of faded memories, broken futures and words that can never be taken back. Moments in time trapped in my mind that keep pushing me to get better because I know that is all that you had ever wanted for me.

But mostly, when I dream of you, I am happy. I am happy that I got to have you for the short amount of time that I could call you mine. I am happy that I got to share my heart and soul with you. I am happy for all of those moments that we shared together that we thought would never end. I am happy for all that we have accomplished and have grown from. I am happy to have had you in my life and how much better a person I am because of it.

When I dream of you, there is hope. Hope for a better tomorrow, hope for a better life, hope for a better me, hope that the world is inherently good.

When I dream of you, that is just it, all I dream of is you.